2/14/2004
an old friend gave me an indian dress but she was handing them out (all wrapped in plastic. rainbows of color.) to women because she'd joined some religious cult the hug and hello being necessary for her new role rather than joy at seeing me again. i threw the dress back at her and stomped off to a tower records that now was run like crate and barrel and where i wasn't pulling my weight. (oh but why were they cleaning shelves and repainting so late at night and why work hard at that when i was so sleepy.) then there was a man who while married to a friend of mine (different one. acutally can't place who this one is.) was allowed to have sex with me too. afterwards i had this deep bruise un my chin where my lower teeth are. she felt sorry for me but didn't express it.